Year 3, Day 142

I am tired of getting up feeling like I do! What has happened to me??????

Another day to get through...

I had a couple of cups of coffee and then had to get Mark out the door. I hate his early weeks. HATE them! I feel like I can't wake up till there is a rush around to make his lunch and get him out the door. I can't get him to wake me up when he gets up to feed the boys. Bless his heart he thinks he is doing me a favor by letting me sleep until 5:45. That gives me 20 minutes to suck down 2 cups of coffee and get after it. I'm not a morning person!

After he left, I fixed my breakfast and grabbed another cup of coffee and jumped on-line and checked in with the cookies and then Bobbie called and we talked about our day and she tried to boost me up. We both promised to work out and I walked a mile with my Wii Walk It Out. I was socked that I was able to walk in place equal to a mile and it was fun as you click bubbles along your route opening up trees and street lights. By the advertise me I guess eventually I will get to the point that I will create buildings! It is alot of fun. I still need to get the nerve to see about joining a gym and getting a personal trainer.

Mike called and checked on me on his way to his meeting and we just talked about electronics and my iPad (which he still has and has had it since I bought it LOL! Does that tell you how my bad my mood has been? To have a iPad and not care about messing with it???? OMG I am really losing it!

Today I just didn't feel like eating so I munched on bags of popcorn and chocolate cupcakes. It was easy to grab as I didn't feel like fixing anything else. I did manage to prepare a stir-fry for dinner which we enjoyed. So I didn't junk out all day long. Mike called a couple of times during the afternoon to check on me. I really think that I must have scared him yesterday. He has actually been nice! LOL!

We didn't eat dinner till late because Mark didn't get home till late because it is their month end close. It doesn't look like he is going to get a commission this month and we are going to have to owe the company. OMG! Something else to stress me out about! Our money is way too tight to have to have this happen. I told him tonight that I couldn't take on any more stress and if we had to drain the retirement fund I didn't give a crap. Mark knew to not say anything but encourage me that it will all work out. He needs to pay all the flippin bills!

I don't know what I did to dinner but I made it hotter than hell! I finally went out to the recipe and figured that I added 3 tablespoons of Sriracha instead of 3 teaspoons. Mark was burning up. I'm such a pepper belly it wasn't until I quit eating that I noticed the heat. He had to stop and cool off his mouth before he finished it! Poor Guy! I was telling him while I was cooking that I was sick of cooking (which is real unusual for me as I usually love to get in the kitchen and create!) These days I'd be happy with what I could open in a bag that didn't even need to be nuked!

I fell asleep in my chair once again. I woke up with Ernie next to me. I turned everything off and picked him up. What a little sweetie as he laid his head on my should and we walked through the house to go to bed. He then snuggled with me till I fell asleep. I love my baby kitty boy! Ernie is my little shadow. I love that cat! I love the others but I'm really attached to this little yellow boy!